| June 21, 2007 We hope everyone is having a great summer and enjoying this beautiful weather. For us, the arrival of summer brings those many anniversary dates that bring smiles and tears at the same time. It's hard to believe that Paige would be 6-years-old today. I often wonder what she would be like ~ What things would she like to do? What would she look like? What would her voice sound like? She would have totally loved kinder garden, riding the school bus. But, most of all she would just love her new little brother Ethan. These are just a few of the questions that I ponder on a daily basis. There are days when I can approach it head on. There are many days when I turn to that wonderful coping mechanism called denial. I'm sure many would say that denial is not a healthy coping mechanism, but sometimes it's the only way to make it through the day while keeping your sanity. Actually, as I sit here and type it's as though I'm talking about another family and another little girl. The entire thing still seems very surreal ~ like it never happened. How we wish it wouldn't have. The other day I realized that I forgot what Paige's voice sounded like. I'm was so tempted to pull out her videos just to hear her talk in that cute little voice. But, I quickly talked myself out of it. The reality that this has actually happened is sometimes just too much to deal with. That's when I back on that convenient crutch of denial. I guess whatever works :) Life is good otherwise. Andy continues to work his 7 days on, and 7 days off shcedule which has it's pros and cons. It's great when he's off for a week, but we hardly see him when he works. I've started picking up a few more days a month and really enjoy getting out of the house. Paige's playroom has been a total hit with the kids! They are in the process of carrying the underwater theme throughout the Pediatric and Pediatric ICU unit. It is just too cool! I will update with pictures when Tracy (the painter) is done working her magic. Thank you for continuing to check in on our family. We remain very grateful for our wonderful family & friends. Much Love, Andy, Sandi & Ethan We echo the cute note that Paige's little friend Jackie left with balloons at the cemetery this week ~ "Paige, we hope you have a Happy Birthday in Heaven" |