| October 13, 2004 Wednesday Hi to everyone. Sorry it's been so long since I've updated. I've been meaning to for a while now, but I always feel as though we don't have much to say. Andy and I have both returned to work. Even though our lives will never be as they were before, we both agree that returning to work has been a positive thing - it gives us a bit of normalcy. I returned part-time, being scheduled 2 days a month and picking up extra days here and there. It's working out well, I just have to keep myself motivated to pick up those extra days :) I've been spending quite a bit of time scrapbooking our Disney trip from January. Andy helped me set up a great little scrapbooking are in the basement that I've thoroughly enjoyed. We now have our own work areas ... mine in the basement and his in the garage :) With fall already here and the holidays right around the corner, it certainly stirs up a mix of emotions. It seems to get harder and harder everyday to accept the realization that Paige is really gone. To see other kids her age and try to imagine what she would be like today and all the things we should be doing together as a family is just so heartbreaking. Usually it's just easier to push those thoughts out of my mind to protect myself emotionally. But, that only works for so long. There are times when I just shake my head in disbelief that this has all happened. But, what can we do. We have no choice but to go on the best we can. Please know how much we appreciate everyone's continued love and support. I promise to update sooner in the future :) Love to all, Andy & Sandi |